. . . in the distant, early morning . . .

Today I canceled DirecTV - and ended a lifelong relationship with M & M advertisements.

I didn’t pick up another TV package.  I will not be subscribing again.  My TVs will be used for movies and gaming.

I’ve been really busy.

What this means is: I haven’t been watching television more than 2-3 hours/week.  And when I do, I feel far more drained and ... lazy… than if I had chosen another activity like my Kinect, or cleaning, or reading, or wrestling with the dogs, or something active mentally and/or physically.

I’ve also lost interest in watching TV.  When I did flip the TV on I couldn’t honestly tell you what I was watching or even _why_. 

This kind of brain-deadness does not fit in with my values or with the person that I want to be.

So… away with TV. 

Today was one of the rare few, of late, where I’ve had an extended amount of time to myself.  I went and bought several books when I only intended to purchase 1.  Then I came home, had some dinner, read, messed around online, cleaned more.  All of this cleaning was done to very loud music with me dancing around the house.  Apparently I’m in a better mood without TV on as well.

But most notably, in previous times I would have sat down on the couch with a few books near me then zoned out in front of the television: not very productive and honestly, not very fun.

So, it appears that ending this relationship with television is a positive move for me. 

Oh - and by the way - canceling was actually quite hard and fairly expensive (though considerably less than paying through the rest of my contract).  I was transferred 4 times and interrogated on each transfer.  Not a single one of the folks I spoke to believed me when I said I was no longer watching television, and of course (as expected) kept trying for customer retention: but in the process ensured that I was so frustrated and annoyed by the end of the call that if I do decide to turn on a TV subscription again, it will most assuredly not be via DirecTV.

Now to turn off the Macbook Air and go back to moving around more.  Yay for movement!

-Lisa, on May 5, 2012 at 9:54 pm .::. Comments and Reactions

I love my home office. It comes equipped with 2 dogs and 1 cat.

-Lisa, on April 4, 2012 at 9:53 am .::. Comments and Reactions

The other day my mother told me that my site being off-line was breaking her heart.  Apparently, the same is true for some close friends (Hi, Cirira.  This is me, calling you out.)

After some ‘therapy’ ranting at my co-workers about not having time to maintain this site, I find I’m much more willing to actually update this site.  WEIRD.

So… I’ll bring it back online, ok?  I’ll write sometimes - not often, and no promises.

What’s new?

I love my life.  That’s the constant, consistent part. 

I upgraded to an HTC Vivid to experience Android and love it.

Mali, Milton, Elka are all doing great, enjoying the days of sun, and bemoaning the 40mph wind and rain days that we get in March.  We had snow today, and I’m still happy.

I have awesome partners to share my life with.  Poly is a good model for me, I find.  It has some really incredible challenges, and has forced me to be far more self-aware, improved my communication skills, and brought more joy to my life than I could have ever expected.  I’ve learned a lot about what I want from my partners, and about how I want to conduct myself in this new-to-me poly world.  I’ve been forced to explore more about my boundaries, limits, anxieties, and overall self.  These are all great things.

But the best part is all of the love, closeness, caring, and bonding.

I’m trying to learn to live more in the moment, not worry so damn much, and not take everything in the world so personally.  These are harder challenges than I expected.  I’ll try to write more about them in the future.

In any case, that’s life.  In April I travel to Ft. Lauderdale, and while I’m looking foward to seeing my family there - I’m not looking forward to the traveling part.  Alas, airplanes must occasionally be part of my life since I have no desire to drive cross-country.

There, I babbled.

NOW YOU CAN ALL STOP TRYING TO GUILT-TRIP ME.

Kidding, mostly.  Hugs to everyone that will take them.  I love hugs.

-Lisa, on March 13, 2012 at 11:33 am .::. Comments and Reactions