Transitioning

I am in a strange place. Not a physical thing – mental, emotional, spiritual?

For such a long time I was trying to get away. Not just in physical location but in a variety of ways.

Now …. I am away. I’m away from all of the struggles that I had for so many years.

And everything has changed.

The challenge that I am having now is this: I was trapped/fleeing/surviving for so long that I lost track of my hobbies and what I enjoy.

Now, I’m out of that vicious cycle. I’m safe, I’m comfortable, I’m content. Life is good.

I don’t know what I want to do though. What are my hobbies? What do I enjoy doing to pass the time?

Even when I am bored – I am not sure what I want to do. They say that boredom invites creativity – well I’m bored, but not inspired to create. My motivation levels are super low in general.

So what is going to spark my curiosity? My passion? My engagement? I know there are a million options out there – and I’m trying not to pressure myself. This has been an overwhelming 3 months on top of an overwhelming decade. It’s ok that I don’t know what the heck I want right now.

Still – I long to feel that fire, that interest in something.