Past

In 2018 I experienced what would be the final discard. I tried to go back. No hoover needed. Then one night, … Continue reading The Final Discard

New Year Resolutions. I don’t tend to like them. Mostly because they fade away. Quickly. I’ve spent 2022 building new habits, … Continue reading Heading toward 2023.

Had a physical today and went over my blood test results. All the problems I had last year – especially cholesterol … Continue reading Healing without medication

Been wanting to write to the internet about this. Hyper-babble mode engaged. I had a DEXA scan on Saturday. I was … Continue reading DEXA scan results and hyper-babble mode.

I’ve been trying to figure out what my food should look like in this next phase. I’ve run through a bunch … Continue reading Next phase: recomp. A li’l bit scared.

For so many years, I’ve been focused on the scale. I lose weight easily when I manage my calories. Sure sure, … Continue reading The hard mental game

I felt depressed & anxious earlier today. We started work on a new memory in EMDR yesterday and while I felt … Continue reading Starting Strong

Fitness changes, growth, 10 year memory.

Actually, fuck “sometimes.” Often? Often is more accurate. Surprises can be delightful, or they can be traumatic. Or anywhere in between. … Continue reading Sometimes, life surprises us

I worry about wasting food. Not wasting food as in “Oh that portion was too big, I’ll throw out the waste.” … Continue reading Cooking and fear

I seem to have a 9 month old, female Newfoundland foster incoming. Owner surrender. I don’t think I’ve fostered a direct … Continue reading It’s been a bit… incoming foster pup?!

It’s been an interesting time for me recently. Not interesting in the greater scheme of things: my life is still beautifully … Continue reading Being me, healing

100.2lbs lost as of this morning. My heaviest weight was 258.8 on October 7, 2010. This morning I weighed 158.6. It … Continue reading 100lbs lost

I post a fair bit about my weight loss and fitness journey on Facebook. Recently, a friend asked me to share … Continue reading New Page: My Health Journey

Rando life updates.

A few days ago I posted about my Elka’s passing. She passed on Friday, December 17th surrounded by her family. I … Continue reading RIP Milton 💔

Last week was a good week. By that I mean that all of the days on Elka’s calendar were green. Thursday, … Continue reading RIP Elka 🌈💔

Well, maybe not each day…. I’ve been playing with this piece now for months. Randomly adding a shape or two and … Continue reading A shape a day…

Sometimes I hear a sound that does not make sense. It continues. Where is the sound? WHAT is the sound? Then … Continue reading Mysteries

Break An egg? An omelette? Ham or peppers? Fast Waffles Insulin spiked Those chips of chocolate Chai spice 16 hours OMAD? … Continue reading Fasted chicken legs

This wind Of wood reed Used to be me, dancing Together My first of many Notes scattering from fingers, the octave … Continue reading Pathways of notes

Teenager. Green, gold. MUDs, EQ, and love. And back, Red. White. Blue. Blue? Me too. For some time. Then school. A … Continue reading Homesick

2010. Innocent. Evil? Overcomable. Changeable. Growth. Health. Happiness. Comfort. On top of the world. Best days of a life. Success. Evil? … Continue reading The loss of innocence

Another run, another day, another page, another way. What does it mean? Cherry Trampling rampling Ramping Moving Fruiting Another jump, another … Continue reading Cherries trampling progress

Memories. Of greener pastures. Of things left behind, not cherished… And now missed. New memories, To hold dear.

This social distancing is making me realize how unusual I am. I’m happy, content, even joyful. I’m *home*. I have food, … Continue reading The Joy of Being Alone

Stuck sucks. Beat down, scratched up, dirty, and worn out. Thankfully, colors abound, and a new outlook can change one’s world. … Continue reading Sometimes, a fresh start is all we need

Swirling effortlessly. Clouds and brushstrokes. A mess of colors, come together. Blend. Dots, pulled. A mess. A hair. A little bit … Continue reading Swirling

I’ve been pondering, introspecting, wondering. I’ve learned many lessons in the last few years. Here are a few on my mind … Continue reading Lessons

Circles and loops and forms and Triangles What? Patterns. The more I review, the more I see. How did I not … Continue reading Circles everywhere

Venturing out, green, red, orange. The smell. Soil. Fire and ice. Inside outside. All around. Foliage, hanging. Growing, Weeping. Our hearts, … Continue reading New life

Wildflowers through snow. Tumbling, dogs. Slippery slides. 3″? 4″? Den, slide, roll, play, munch. A million miles an hour, stop. Breathe. … Continue reading Tumbling, tumbling

Storing stuff. So sanctuary. Ten things, once. Upon a midnight dreary. Tick tock. Tigers singing, screaming, clawing. Friends, still there, but … Continue reading Sanctuary stuff storage

Plugging away in the plumbed-out space. Parties peering through the memories. Another wasted year. Cauliflower crickets call charmingly. Creating cacophonous collages. … Continue reading Plumbed out crickets

Well, it is now the new year. It’s also Wednesday. I have two meetings today. Inviting in a new year is … Continue reading 2020

For a bunch of years, I had promised myself I wouldn’t move into the next year tethered to the same people. … Continue reading That one New Year’s resolution

I am in a strange place. Not a physical thing – mental, emotional, spiritual? For such a long time I was … Continue reading Transitioning

I don’t know why I am writing here again. But also… why not? Life changes so quickly – and sometimes, not … Continue reading Life is amazing.