- Heading toward 2023.New Year Resolutions. I don’t tend to like them. Mostly because they fade away. Quickly. I’ve spent 2022 building new habits, … Continue reading Heading toward 2023.
- Healing without medicationHad a physical today and went over my blood test results. All the problems I had last year – especially cholesterol … Continue reading Healing without medication
- DEXA scan results and hyper-babble mode.Been wanting to write to the internet about this. Hyper-babble mode engaged. I had a DEXA scan on Saturday. I was … Continue reading DEXA scan results and hyper-babble mode.
- Next phase: recomp. A li’l bit scared.I’ve been trying to figure out what my food should look like in this next phase. I’ve run through a bunch … Continue reading Next phase: recomp. A li’l bit scared.
- The hard mental gameFor so many years, I’ve been focused on the scale. I lose weight easily when I manage my calories. Sure sure, … Continue reading The hard mental game
- Starting StrongI felt depressed & anxious earlier today. We started work on a new memory in EMDR yesterday and while I felt … Continue reading Starting Strong
- Fitness goals: a moving targetFitness changes, growth, 10 year memory.
- Sometimes, life surprises usActually, fuck “sometimes.” Often? Often is more accurate. Surprises can be delightful, or they can be traumatic. Or anywhere in between. … Continue reading Sometimes, life surprises us
- Cooking and fearI worry about wasting food. Not wasting food as in “Oh that portion was too big, I’ll throw out the waste.” … Continue reading Cooking and fear
- It’s been a bit… incoming foster pup?!I seem to have a 9 month old, female Newfoundland foster incoming. Owner surrender. I don’t think I’ve fostered a direct … Continue reading It’s been a bit… incoming foster pup?!
- Being me, healingIt’s been an interesting time for me recently. Not interesting in the greater scheme of things: my life is still beautifully … Continue reading Being me, healing
- 100lbs lost100.2lbs lost as of this morning. My heaviest weight was 258.8 on October 7, 2010. This morning I weighed 158.6. It … Continue reading 100lbs lost
- New Page: My Health JourneyI post a fair bit about my weight loss and fitness journey on Facebook. Recently, a friend asked me to share … Continue reading New Page: My Health Journey
- Things and stuff.Rando life updates.
- RIP Milton 💔A few days ago I posted about my Elka’s passing. She passed on Friday, December 17th surrounded by her family. I … Continue reading RIP Milton 💔
- RIP Elka 🌈💔Last week was a good week. By that I mean that all of the days on Elka’s calendar were green. Thursday, … Continue reading RIP Elka 🌈💔
- A shape a day…Well, maybe not each day…. I’ve been playing with this piece now for months. Randomly adding a shape or two and … Continue reading A shape a day…
- MysteriesSometimes I hear a sound that does not make sense. It continues. Where is the sound? WHAT is the sound? Then … Continue reading Mysteries
- Fasted chicken legsBreak An egg? An omelette? Ham or peppers? Fast Waffles Insulin spiked Those chips of chocolate Chai spice 16 hours OMAD? … Continue reading Fasted chicken legs
- Pathways of notesThis wind Of wood reed Used to be me, dancing Together My first of many Notes scattering from fingers, the octave … Continue reading Pathways of notes
- HomesickTeenager. Green, gold. MUDs, EQ, and love. And back, Red. White. Blue. Blue? Me too. For some time. Then school. A … Continue reading Homesick
- The loss of innocence2010. Innocent. Evil? Overcomable. Changeable. Growth. Health. Happiness. Comfort. On top of the world. Best days of a life. Success. Evil? … Continue reading The loss of innocence
- Cherries trampling progressAnother run, another day, another page, another way. What does it mean? Cherry Trampling rampling Ramping Moving Fruiting Another jump, another … Continue reading Cherries trampling progress
- Gazing
- Automatic Drawing
- Automatic Drawing
- Automatic drawing
- MemoriesMemories. Of greener pastures. Of things left behind, not cherished… And now missed. New memories, To hold dear.
- The Joy of Being AloneThis social distancing is making me realize how unusual I am. I’m happy, content, even joyful. I’m *home*. I have food, … Continue reading The Joy of Being Alone
- Sometimes, a fresh start is all we needStuck sucks. Beat down, scratched up, dirty, and worn out. Thankfully, colors abound, and a new outlook can change one’s world. … Continue reading Sometimes, a fresh start is all we need
- SwirlingSwirling effortlessly. Clouds and brushstrokes. A mess of colors, come together. Blend. Dots, pulled. A mess. A hair. A little bit … Continue reading Swirling
- LessonsI’ve been pondering, introspecting, wondering. I’ve learned many lessons in the last few years. Here are a few on my mind … Continue reading Lessons
- Circles everywhereCircles and loops and forms and Triangles What? Patterns. The more I review, the more I see. How did I not … Continue reading Circles everywhere
- New lifeVenturing out, green, red, orange. The smell. Soil. Fire and ice. Inside outside. All around. Foliage, hanging. Growing, Weeping. Our hearts, … Continue reading New life
- Tumbling, tumblingWildflowers through snow. Tumbling, dogs. Slippery slides. 3″? 4″? Den, slide, roll, play, munch. A million miles an hour, stop. Breathe. … Continue reading Tumbling, tumbling
- Sanctuary stuff storageStoring stuff. So sanctuary. Ten things, once. Upon a midnight dreary. Tick tock. Tigers singing, screaming, clawing. Friends, still there, but … Continue reading Sanctuary stuff storage
- Plumbed out cricketsPlugging away in the plumbed-out space. Parties peering through the memories. Another wasted year. Cauliflower crickets call charmingly. Creating cacophonous collages. … Continue reading Plumbed out crickets
- 2020Well, it is now the new year. It’s also Wednesday. I have two meetings today. Inviting in a new year is … Continue reading 2020
- That one New Year’s resolutionFor a bunch of years, I had promised myself I wouldn’t move into the next year tethered to the same people. … Continue reading That one New Year’s resolution
- TransitioningI am in a strange place. Not a physical thing – mental, emotional, spiritual? For such a long time I was … Continue reading Transitioning
- Life is amazing.I don’t know why I am writing here again. But also… why not? Life changes so quickly – and sometimes, not … Continue reading Life is amazing.